Showing posts with label stress. Show all posts
Showing posts with label stress. Show all posts

Saturday, 10 November 2012

Warning - Deep thinking about life and other things...

Hello peeps!
I finally got my backpack last w.e and my ticket for the Caribbean this week. I have also confirmed my visits here and there with friends and family. And I am looking up casual work opportunities to earn some pennies whilst lounging it on the beach :)
So this is it, I am all set to go! One small detail - I still have got 3wks to go in the office. Which brings me to a bit of reflection today - sorry in advance for the page long post!
My company requires us leavers to give at least 3 months notice, so I handed out my resignation back in August. For the whole month of September, I was still giving it 300%, staying in late, even working on Sundays. Then October came, together with an increasingly difficult ability to focus on the petty fights, back stabbing, finger pointing and similar cr@p happening around me. Now November is here and I am in my last 3wks of working routine.
Three months is a long time. I handed out my notice in August, but my decision to go was taken a good couple of months before, and I have been toying with the idea for at least 2-3yrs. So all in all, I have been gone, at least in my head, for something like half a year already.
There are good points and bad points to this situation.
The good:
- It's been 6 months I have stopped being stressed at work.
- So it's been 6 months I am more efficient in my work - believe it or not!
- I sleep better and wake up with a smile on my face.
- It's been 6 months I stepped out of the office politics game - again, much better for my own sanity.
- I can now see things with a new perspective and can pin point where processes are letting the business down - therefore where improvements can be made.
- I can bring a breeze of fresh air to my teammates and pick them up with my positive energy.
Now the bad:
- It's been 6wks I find it difficult to focus on the little details. Most of the time there is no detrimental effect on my work, but sometimes, things can end up a bit behind. That said, things still got to slip when I was like a hawk on every single useless details of a project because of the clutter it was causing in my little head.
- I am becoming increasingly selfish in my approach to things, and not always offering to help. I know - baaaad - but as a result I don't get drawn into activities which are not within my area of responsibility and would therefore only end up diluting my time even more. Something to do with too few people, too much to do...
- I am now trying to get other people in the office to do something for themselves - very baaad from the company point of view!
And the ugly: people could be dropping dead around me on my last day in a bid to make me stay longer, but I would just step over them on my way to the door and say bye!
In a nutshell - I am a much more efficient, approachable and motivating team member. How sad is it that I have become an A-star worker because I know that I am leaving soon.
Maybe the secret is to give your notice - at least in your head - as soon as you start a new job. The good in my list far outweigh the bad, which is only bad if you don't care about the well being of people in the workplace.
My learning though is there is no secret. Life is too short to waste any of it - not even a few months. You should ONLY do the things DECIDE to do.
If you are unhappy in a job, then you should move on and find a new one you will happy in. Why stay somewhere for the sake of being able to moan about the job or the company? You wont get any of the good from my - very short - list, whereas the bad will only add up.
However if you DECIDE to be somewhere, then make sure:
1. It is a job/company that you really choose to be in. We have all heard the old story - recession, I need money and I will die in the gutter if I don't take this job. But aside from a handful of life or death situation, nobody EVER had to take a job. Stop the bullcr@p and man up for goodness sake!
2. You wake up everyday with a smile on your face because you will be going to do something you enjoy and strive for.
3. And because work is only part of the day - make some time for yourself every day and do something that makes you feel good. Again, we all know the old story - need 25hrs in the day to fit it all, what about the kids and house cleaning, I am shattered when I leave the office, it is dark outside, I am broke - but, seriously? Do you really believe that?
Now go and enjoy, because you never know what is coming your way.

Saturday, 13 October 2012

Living out of a suitcase

Hello peeps!

This week my journey has well and truly started.

I moved out of my flat on Tuesday and moved into a friend's spare room. It was a bit of a shock when I got there.

All my life packed in 3 suitcases, 3 bags and 4 boxes, fighting for space among my friend's stuff, a single bed on one side and the pump in the fish tank promising to turn me insane in the middle of the night if I don't switch it off. That, and the uncertainty of what the next year and a half will bring.

Was tough. Real tough. I actually cried. Life as I knew it was over and a new life I know nothing about was begining.

After the first couple of nights, things are feeling a lot more settled.
Wake up around 7am, courtesy of the 3 kids upstairs running around.
New shower routine - don't forget the bathrobe... would be best to avoid any unfortunate incident...
Wi-fi detox - that one is still bringing tears to my eyes! I def need to get them a router :(
New parking spot in the street.

But also - starting to feel this trip shaping up and becoming real.

I will be leaving the UK in 7wks. There no time to sit around and hope for the best.

It will be the best because I will make it the best.Simple as that.

It's just that I might spend the w.e in my bathrobe not doing much... one needs to enjoy the quiet house before the kids come back on Monday morning!!!

:)

Sunday, 30 September 2012

The clock is now ticking

Hello peeps!

This whole "I'm off traveling next year" thing is starting to get very real now. The countdown has started and I now have exactly 2 months until the end of my life as know it.
 
In a week's time, I will be officially homeless. So from next Sunday, I will be lodging at a friend's, waiting for the first part of the trip - 2 months back home in the Caribbean in December/January.

I will be back in the UK in February to finish my visa applications, then I will be off again early March for 11 months.


Moving out, planning the trips and manage tensions at work whilst dealing with the pain from my recent break-up - stress factor is definitely cranked up into red zone. I am even starting to question whether I took the right decision. Maybe now was not the right time to change everything.


The clock is definitely ticking a little bit faster now - but at the moment it feels more like a bomb timer than anything else.

:(