How I was a tourist in my home country

Hello peeps!

My time in Martinique is coming to an end and I am amazed at all the things I experienced during my stay.

I left the island almost 16 years ago, to complete my education in France as many people my generation did. But despite being born here, for the past few years I have felt very much like an outsider every time I came back.

Over the past 2 months, I got to go sailing, hiking, sampling the local gastronomy, sea kayaking, diving, going to a painting exhibition, visiting museums, being a nanny, a teacher and being a beach bum. I always had my camera at hand, flashing everything from family gatherings to beautiful landscapes and bugs!

This is the longest I have been in Martinique since I left, and this time I took the time to actually go and discover my island. It is true what they say, you never know how much you miss something until it is gone. I opened myself to my surrounding and ended up joining forces with an American and a Polish guy to go sightseeing!

I am not saying everything is all good and rosy in Martinique, far from it! The current local debate on the gay marriage seems to bring the worst out of some people. Think the Imams demonstrating in London and shouting violent slogans are bad? Then think again! One of the best seller songs for the up coming Carnival celebrations is spreading homophobic messages on mainstream radio here. Sad, but true.

Not all is to throw away either, and this is the bit I really miss - spending time with my family, wearing shorts and flip flops every day, feel the warm breeze on my skin and going to the beach pretty much every day.

I will always keep Martinique close to my heart - this is were my kin laid roots, so this will always be "back home" for me. But, it is not "home" anymore and I will only be a tourist in my home country now.

Now, as Buzz Lightyear famously said - to infinity and beyond!!!!
:)

Let's stop and reflect - 2wks into the trip

Hello peeps!

Tomorrow will be 2wks I have started my trip, and I feel like a bit of introspection time is due :)

Here we go then - 2 wks ago:
- I left the UK to start my 15 months adventure around the world
- I was looking forward to spending my days at the beach, eating seafood and drinking fruit juices at every meals, including snacks
- I was a little sad to leave behind my life and friends but eager to get on the road. At the same time I was a bit anxious as to how things would go since I have never done any traveling on my own for such a long time before

Now, 2wks after:
- I have been actively looking for a job since last week - either teaching for the Xmas holidays or as crew on a boat. I actually miss the routine of going in the office!!!
- I have met an American guy also on holidays in Martinique and we are now hanging out regularly to go to the beach or drinks
- My hair and skin are so happy - no dryness, no tightness, just happy and full of life
- I do spend most of my days at the beach, but I am definitely not eating as much seafood or drinking as much fruit juice as I thought I would!
- I have lost all sens of time or days passing, which can be slightly disconcerting sometimes
- I find it rather difficult to keep the routine of working on my training and I am already 1wk behind schedule - not good at all as my credentials are time bound, so I will have to make up the missed sessions somehow!!
- After 2wks back here my home country I can safely say that I will not be able to come and live here - something I have known for a while now, but now it is confirmed beyond any doubt :(

Verdict of these 2wks:
Still very much positive. I truly believe I took the right decision to go away for a while. Despite missing my friends dearly, having my own home and - I know, I am crazy - the routine of going to the office, I feel good and I am enjoying every single minute of it!

This is a feeling I wish everyone could enjoy. Taking control of ones life is one of the most exhilarating joys you could ever experience - so people, TAKE CONTROL and enjoy :)

That's it for now, I am off for a ride with my little nephew. He's so cute, but what a nightmare to look after!

7 days to Xmas.....  :)

Counting down the days and looking back on the past

Hello peeps!

I am now less than 2wks away from departure day. It still doesn't feel real, but it is definitely happening!

By the time I leave, I would have been in the UK for exactly 8yrs 2wks 4days.

Looking back on that time, I feel I am a different person than the young and clueless graduate that got off the Eurostar at Waterloo that day long ago, and not just because I am (only) 2yrs older....

I have met amazing people during that time, from all corners of the world and paths of life. The UK is the only place I have found where all kind of people have a chance to shine, without being judged for how they look/talk/love.

I have worked for companies big and small, always earning respect from my peers. I even managed to get a job I had absolutely no qualifications for, but I still did very well. Talk about self confidence... :)

I have taken part in sports I would have never thought about before coming here - rugby, rowing, doing the GRIM, twice!

I met somebody I thought I could spend the rest of my days with.

I got a proper grown up car.

And last but not least - I have met myself and accepted who I am.

I don't know what the next 15 months will bring, but whatever comes my way I think the Angela that will come back will be different compared to the Angela of right now.

I guess this is what life is about - change.

I only usually reflect on how much things have evolved when I am on the brink of some drastic change, but it is an on-going process. Every day is a learning, every encounter bring a new perspective but it is very easy to lose sight of this when stuck in the daily grind.

I went to this NLP training earlier this year and the guy said something I think is very true: until you put yourself in the driving seat, you will always be disappointed with life because nobody else can take charge of your happiness.

I wish I could find a way to bottle this feeling so I could keep it with me when I come back and have a little taste once in a while. Just so I can remember to stop, look around and see rather than simply pass through the days, waiting for something good, anything, to happen.

This will be my challenge for the next 15 months!

Smile people :)

By the way - chicken pox are all gone now, yay!